Mamma Mia

I'm beginning to get a bit frustrated. I've never seen goods change hands as many times as this. I suppose that means the trail is hot. And as much as I would have enjoyed another evening in Ireland, perhaps a slightly more sober evening, I can't let it get cold.

And now I have Robert following me around like little Ringo used to do. Darling, if you're reading this, for God's sake, would you please stay put? It really is for your own good. I promise to fill you in later, when all is said and done.

Last call for boarding to the land of the midnight sun. I hope I can find a few hours of uninterrupted sleep once I get there.

My Love

LOL! Oh my dear, dear Robert! You were indeed quite soused last evening. And no, I slipped you no micky - you just can't hold your liquor the way you used to! I, on the other hand, have learnt over the years that if you pay the bartender enough, he will water down your drinks for you. Yes, it was a mean thing to do, but you really shouldn't have followed me.

Robert, please listen to me carefully - I love you too much to put you in danger and that's what is going to happen if you keep this up. Please let me handle it, I know what I'm doing. And just for the record, you hurt my feelings by suggesting I was working for the family; I haven't pulled a con for them in years.

When this is all done, we can sit down and have a nice long chat about a possible future together. Just be patient and have a little bit of
faith in me.

BTW, you're still quite a man, no matter how drunk you are! (wink-wink)

Daydreaming

"Je ne reconnais plus/Ni les murs, ni les rues/Qui ont vu ma jeunesse"

I spent the day sitting on a terrasse, sipping coffee and savoring pain au chocolat. All the while waiting for that family friend to come up with some more info on those missing goods. I hate waiting. Give me a little action any day.

I tried to make the best of things and people watched. It was a beautiful day - almost spring - and the crowds were out, milling around the artists. I watched a young couple for a while. They were so much in love, you could see it in their faces, in the way they looked at one another. It was breathtaking. And I remember that feeling. So I made up stories about them. Maybe they were a young couple on their honeymoon? On a lovers' getaway? Maybe they were art dealers, taking a break between finds.

After three cups of wonderful coffee, I finally got the message I'd been waiting for. Say what you will about my family, but sometimes the connections can be invaluable. I've a new lead on the goods and I leave tonight.

Calgon Take Me Away...

I spent most of the day running around in circles, trying to catch up with an old family associate. I am in need of his expertise in relocating some missing items. He was able to assure me that no one I know has them – which, in some ways, is a relief. I should have more information from him in the next day or so.

I was able to spend a bit of time in one of my favorite museums today. I passed by Degas' dancers in favor of his more interesting nudes. There were only three: Nude Wiping Her Foot, Bather Stretched Out on the Floor, and The Tub. I wish I'd spent less time in the tub while we were all at the Villa last year. If that had been the case I might already be out of this mess that I'm in. Oh well – if wishes were booze…

Diamonds are a girls best friend...

It has been a week since that night with Robert. It was so hard leaving him that night. I decided I needed to put a great deal of distance between us lest I be too tempted to let him help me. I can only hope all of this will end soon and I can find Robert again and explain everything. Right now, my secrets and my fears must remain my own. I cannot help thinking of our time together as short as it was. I have tried to push my memories out of my mind, but he haunts my dreams.

I had to get far away. Luckily, I found what I was looking for in London, well it was here for a time. It is nice to be home for awhile. My accent does not stand out here and it is so easy to blend into the city. I wish I could visit with friends, but I cannot place anyone in danger. Besides, I keep reminding myself, diamonds are always a girl's best friend. Although I fear I will be traveling again soon. Maybe I will take that vacation that Robert and I always meant to take. I think I might just find what I am looking for there. I just need to add a little sparkle to my life.

Once upon a year ago...

Has it already been a year since that horrible epidemic hit Port Charles?
I still wish that hadn't turned out the way it did. I had to make Robert believe I was holding the antidote for ransom. I really wasn't, Robert knows that I'm not capable of that. I think that ill fated day a year ago, he thought for maybe a split second that I might have, but I guess as a con artist even I fooled him into thinking I was really involved, thus his reasons for being upset that day & let me get carted off. He told me he did intend to rescue me (after he came to his senses,I presume) if I was involved he just wanted to teach me a lesson for not trusting him enough to tell him what was really going on...

I did manage to call Mac later that summer, said I couldn't talk long, but wanted to let him know I would never let Robin or anyone die, and he said he knew that I wouldn't let people die for a price. He said he & Robbie talked it over, and there had to be more to the story. Good ol' Mac. What a great brother in law! I was glad he finally started talking to Robert again at that point, Mac was so angry when he found out Robert let him believe he was dead.
He said Robin didn't believe I was directly involved either, said she actually came to my defense. But in the Markhams I didn't let myself get close to her again because I knew I'd have to be on the move all the time, and didn't want to involve her in what was going on. Too bad the kids came to the Islands. I also was only testing her a little to see how much she really cared about Dr Patrick, she was trying so hard to deny it. She was obviously jealous by our flirting, but it never would've led anywhere, as I said I was testing her. I think it made her realize just how much she really cared for him. And when the bounty hunters came in , they were making out like crazy. (Gosh I miss those J-E-W-E-L-S.)I'm so happy she's found someone again, I remember when Stone died. Robin & I kept in touch a lot then & I visited when I could.
Last week Robert said Robin & Patrick were fighting over trivial things, such as a couch?
I told Robert I still couldn't tell him anything, I had my reasons and some day I can tell him, but not now...

Night and Day

Leaving my hotel room this morning was the hardest thing I've had to do in a long while. Much to my delight, Robert picked up on my clues and found me last night. Our first 12 hours of actually being alone together in when? 15 years? Heaven. Sheer heaven. Yet maddening at the same time. Of course he had a million questions about what's going on – what I've "gotten myself into" - and he was pressuring me for answers. I believe tenacity was the word you were looking for, Robert. Like a dog with a bone. I hope you'll forgive me for slipping out the way I did, but I thought it would be easier that way. I can't imagine it being any harder. I hope you can understand that there are some things I have to take care of on my own – for everyone's sake.