Happy Anniversary, Robert

whew!...I think I slipped back to my hotel without being followed by the goons or Robert...
What a day today was. Well, earlier I wished for something to happen to keep me from thinking of our anniversary, but just the opposite happened. Personally, it all worked out better than I'd hoped.
After my lengthy shopping spree that basically consisted of window shopping today, I decided to go back to 5th Ave, because there was another hat I was thinking of getting to match my coat I was wearing. It was "faux" fur, I don't wear real fur. So naturally I went back & bought it!

Then I ventured down further and ended up walking past St Patricks' church. Wed evening mass was about to begin, there were lots of people entering the church. Made me think, what if Robert & I had a beautiful church wedding? I had always hoped we'd have a chance to actually write vows that were from our hearts and pledge those words to each other eternally in front of God & our loved ones. During the weddings that Robert & I attended together, I would always daydream it was us up there.
Well, maybe someday it could still happen. Tiffany could be my maid of honor, and Sean could be Robert's best man. Sean & Tiff's youngest daughter could be our flower girl. I was busy daydreaming of all the details, when someone GRABBED me by my shoulder! I felt as frightened as I did when I was in San Francisco with Bill, but this time there was no Bill to save me. I turned expecting either a mugger or the goons following me around, but this "goon" pulled me to him & kissed me. I let him...I couldn't resist, he was so handsome, his lips so familiar...Robert...of course he found me. We kissed passionately, this time no guards we were trying to fool, or Luke around. Just the 2 of us, on our anniversary. I never would've imagined it was possible.
Well, at least I thought we were alone. I saw someone hiding behind a tall bush at St Patricks church. I leaned into Robert as if I hadn't seen that guy, and told him I didn't know when I'd get a chance to finally tell him, that I had never signed the divorce papers, we were still married. I said I had to go, I ran without telling him someone was watching. If Robert finds out anything, he would be in danger...

So now I am alone again & I am listening to a song that reminds me of Robert & I.
It's called Window To My Heart by Jon Secada, in fact most songs by Jon Secada feel so close to my heart.

Here are the lyrics to Window To My Heart:

Alone in the dark
Waiting for the sunrise
Feeling wide awake
Pretending you're there with me
Don't wanna close my eyes
Because I wanna keep believing
That we can be together
As far as I can see
I know you feel the same
Give us the chance to make it



Through your eyes there's a window that goes to my heart
I can see me still loving you the rest of my life
Look inside, look inside through the window that goes to my heart

Stay with me tonight
I promise you one thing girl
No matter, come what may
I'll always be here for you
And if you believe in me
I know that I can be
Everything that you need
As far as I can see
I know you feel the same
Give us a chance to make it

Through your eyes there's a window that goes to my heart
I can see me still loving you the rest of my life
Look inside, look inside through the window that goes to my heart



You're the only one who's light has ever made it through
And I've been waiting for so long for somebody like you
Look inside, look inside through the window that goes to my heart

No I don't care how long I have to wait
If it means that you'll stay
Through your eyes I always feel the truth
Make no mistake
Give us a chance to make it

Look inside, look inside through the window that goes to my heart

Through your eyes there's a window that goes to my heart
I can see me still loving you the rest of my life
Look inside, look inside through the window that goes to my heart

You're the only one who's light has made it through
And I've been waiting for so long for somebody like you
Look inside, look inside through the window that goes to my heart

Through your eyes there's a window that goes to my heart
I can see me still loving you the rest of my life
Look inside, look inside through the window that goes to my heart